All day today I have had this stirring inside me to write but I don't know why or what. Maybe to express that I am human and still have not shaken the fact that I cannot perfect myself through yet another personality trial at work. I thought I had left this behind at my last job. Now, yet again?!
Then, I was reading a book by Elizabeth George, Finding God's Path Through Your Trials. She so eloquently but bluntly says God is going to give us trials and they are not going to let up. eh! But she says that no believer is exempt from trials and no trial is unique. So, that in itself is encouraging because we are not the only ones that have gone through this trial. Maybe different circumstances but the same frustration. Nor is it a trial that God, himself, has not gone through and knows what we are feeling.
I realize I have stood still in my relationship with Him trying to figure out which way to go or what to do. Hearing my own voice inside just wanting a way out of the situation and not walking the path of wisdom with Him. I didn't want to admit to Him that I am back here again feeling defeated. He gives me others in my life to be able to relate to and understand the trial with so I can grow in His strength and wisdom. The circumstance may be different but the feeling is the same.
Then, He opens my eyes in His Word and shows me these verses:
Ecclesiastes 1:8-9 All things are wearisome, more than one can say. The eye never has enough of seeing nor the ear its fill of hearing. What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun.
There is nothing new under the sun to Him and He just wants us to come to Him sharing the frustration of the day. He comforts us in whatever we are dealing with in life, friends or co-workers. His Word is a light unto my path.
Something I learn more and more of each day. I am a person with a big heart and cares a lot (too much sometimes). Has a heart for wanting to learn more of God who love me so much that I don't understand it and want to be able to give that love to others. God has been so patient with me and all the craziness I have put Him through. May I be there for someone else in the same way.